Back to Basics

The past two months have been incredibly heavy, painful and difficult for me, like one looooooong long test and you can't find the answers. Or perhaps, you know the answers but you just can't write them down in the proper form to get full points. I've began to doubt myself again and when I do that, I feel guilty because I seem to doubt what God has in store for my life. 

One realization I've managed to get from the confounding combination of moderately difficult problems that I am facing right now is that I have a lot of growing up to do. But when you think about it, do you really just say I want to grow up and it happens? Because if it does, it's not working for me. 

I feel that this painful tunnel in my life will be longer than I would hope but, cliche as it may seem, there is always light at the end of the tunnel. Because if there isn't, what a sad journey it would be. 

Then again, only in the darkest night when the moon is veiled and the clouds are gone do we see the beauty of the millions and millions of the jewels of the universe. It just keeps growing darker for me these days and the best thing to do perhaps is gaze at the stars.

"You will suffer the world. But take courage! I have overcome the world." - John 16:33